THE BLITZ and MAJOR CONFESSION TIME!

I love cherry blossoms!

Okay, I don't usually do this...but I've decided to take the plunge. this year will be MY year -- fixed teeth AND I'm gonna finally get the rest of my weight off. Not just so I can look cool when I go to Kaui in what is it? around 195 days and counting? But also because I want to FEEL better. I'm sick of these health issues and huffing and puffing while following my friends walk up and down hills in San Francisco. I officially declare war on weight! I worked too damned hard to get the weight off... Sorry but I'm just not one of those people who gets to eat and drink whatever I want and slack off. 

So I'm on this BLITZ. and as Erika, my Dietitian at HMR says, "Don't diet on the diet!" I asked her what that meant because, to be honest, I didn't know. She said to NOT limit myself of the healthy foods I can eat...so don't count calories. (it's easy to fall into that trap). More is better right now..

Now for the major confession. I got down to the 170's in my weight loss journey. I stayed there for quite a while...but these past couple of years have not been easy. Above you see me in front of the cherry blossoms, which I love and look forward to every year -- weighing in at 195 pounds. I hate to even admit it, but hey at least I did not gain all my weight back right? (I was up to 240 when I started that program).

So now I have decided I am REALLY going to do it. The Blitz is easy yet difficult at the same time. I have to "stay in the box." Eating out is almost impossible -- but it can be done... and the food pushers will always say, "Why can't you eat or drink this?" and then I have to explain -- or not explain. Not everyone is supportive of this. But my life kind of depends on it... everyone has their own journey. I have mine and you have yours. 

Here's my lunch today: HMR Turkey Chili, Spinach and a baked potato (and crystal light to drink!):

Not too shabby! :)

So the journey continues...because in less than 198 days, WE'RE GOING TO KAUAI!!! and I want to at least not be embarrassed because you'd better believe I'll be wearing a bathing suit and shorts most of the time I'm there and I'm going to swim constantly when I'm not playing ukulele! Yaaayy!

oh yeah! can't keep me off the beach or out of the water!

and I'll be swimming here!

and here!

we will be playin' ukuleles on this beach!!!

I'm ready for the journey... come heck or high water, I'll get there. All I want or could ask for is support -- just say, okay it's cool. I understand when I have to turn down sweets and calorie-ridden drinks. If only people could understand that when I finally got under 200 pounds while doing the HMR weight management program, I cried because it was a major milestone for me and I thought I'd never be able to do it. I can't go there again, I just can't.

Life is filled with fun and adventure, and I intend to have loads of fun on the journey and not worry about, "Oh when I lose all that weight, I can do this." Just doesn't work that way. So this will be the adventure.

THE HMR BLITZ - DAY 1!!!!

Okay it sounds easy but it really isn't. I'm going back on the blitz. who cares that I was late for the first Blitz meeting cuz sometimes it's hard for me to get out of my workplace? or that I have a million different things going on right now -- or that there are family issues...and I am always out and about. and already I was challenged by the fried shrimp at the Wednesday Wind Down at work. but I STAYED STRONG! just got me some fruit and a diet soda.

life may be spiraling out of control...but here I am doing THE BLITZ!!! I can do this thing...really I can.

I did it before. and I lost a lot of weight. why can't I do it again?